thoughts from a caregiver

If my grief could speak

If my grief could speak

“WTF!” my grief screamed. Holding on for dear life to a stop sign pole, an uncontrollable storm attempted to tear them from their safety and into the turbulent unknown. “I can’t let go....

If my grief could speak

“WTF!” my grief screamed. Holding on for dear life to a stop sign pole, an uncontrollable storm attempted to tear them from their safety and into the turbulent unknown. “I can’t let go....

"Why do you take those?"

"Why do you take those?"

“Why do you take those?” my 9 year old asked as I finished my morning glass of water, with a side of antidepressants.

"Why do you take those?"

“Why do you take those?” my 9 year old asked as I finished my morning glass of water, with a side of antidepressants.

In an instant

In an instant

In an instant everything changed.   I went from single mom life with four cutie boys, to a medical mom and caregiver on top of it all.

In an instant

In an instant everything changed.   I went from single mom life with four cutie boys, to a medical mom and caregiver on top of it all.

Is surrender resignation?

Is surrender resignation?

My tense body melted into the bed beneath me. My screams turned into moans. The wails into whimpers. On one hand it felt like peaceful surrender and on the other...

Is surrender resignation?

My tense body melted into the bed beneath me. My screams turned into moans. The wails into whimpers. On one hand it felt like peaceful surrender and on the other...

the dream

the dream

When we are young we dream of the life we will create when we grow up. We envision leaving the pain of our childhood to the bliss of freedom and...

the dream

When we are young we dream of the life we will create when we grow up. We envision leaving the pain of our childhood to the bliss of freedom and...

Smiling mom holding her disabled smiling infant son

the rollercoaster

Oh hello, thanks for being here to my little corner of the universe. This blog is for support, understanding, solidarity, encouragement, discouragement, honesty, the highs and lows and any other...

the rollercoaster

Oh hello, thanks for being here to my little corner of the universe. This blog is for support, understanding, solidarity, encouragement, discouragement, honesty, the highs and lows and any other...